Cross My Heart

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Cross My Heart
By: Sara Elisabeth Christopher

Prologue

Love is like the wind...you can't see it, but you can feel it all over. Love. I have not known love for quite sometime....I have wondered this earth for almost 300 years seeking out the man who took those feelings away from me. The man that stole my meaning for existence. The man who ruined my life. My name is Jade Moore, and this is my story. 

Chapter 1: Unknown Feelings
"Sissy! Mommy said to get up!" Came the voice of my baby brother Liam one cold December morning.
I sat up, and I stretched. I looked out my window at the falling snow. 'So pretty' I thought to myself. The snow is so pretty. It's so free...I want to be like the snow. Pretty, and free. "SIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSYYYYYYYY!!!!!!" came Liam's tiny voice yelling for me. I smiled to myself, and walked out of my room. Liam hugged my legs giggling. "Hi baby" I said smiling as I picked him up. He giggled. "Sissy, I wove you" Liam said as he rested his tiny head on my shoulder. I held my baby brother close. "I love you too baby" I said quietly. Liam looked at me with his big brown eyes. "I heawd you cwying last night Sissy......." he said quietly. "......I just had a nightmare....." I said quietly, as I gently kissed his forehead. He stared at me intently. I kissed his little forehead. He touched my forehead with his little hand. "Deaw God, pwease hewp sissy sweep good tonight, and keep the nightmawes away. Amen" Liam prayed quietly. My family was very religious. I was religious too, but I admit sometimes I did things that weren't right. I'm not perfect, and I know God knows that. "Thank you baby you're so good to me" I said smiling. He smiled big.
"Hey Jade wait up!" I heard my best friend Kevin calling after me as I walked to school. I turned around smiling. "There you are what took you so long slow poke!" I joked. He smiled. "Dad wanted to talk again" he said as we started walking. "So uhhhh.....it's you, and Eric's annyversarie huh..." he said in his quiet tone. "Yupp" I said said smiling big. I saw Kevin staring down at his black, and blue converses. "So I guess.....I guess you wouldn't want to hang out later huh......." he said quietly. "Kevin.....of course I want to hang out later.....that sounds perfect" I said smiling. "But what about you're annyversarie?" He asked quietly. "Eric will understand" i said smiling. He smiled big. "So my parents are gone for the weekend that means we can really have some fun" he said smiling. I smiled. "I'm thinking horror movies, and some popcorn" I said smiling. "You read my mind" he said smiling back. I giggled, and smiled big. Kevin, and I have been best friends for as long as I can remember. Fourteen years ago Kevin, and his family moved to the small town of Rosewood, Pennsylvania from their small hometown of Transylvania, Romania. I met Kevin in preschool. He was the new kid. Quiet and shy. Mrs. Farris had paired us up as clean up partners, our job as to put away all the toys, and to make sure our play station was clean. I still remember it as though it was yesterday.
The meanest boy in preschool Kyle Louis was always picking on me. He would pull on my pigtails, and make fun of me for being a teachers pet. I remember the one day he went too far. I was playing with the blocks in the play area when he started pulling on my hair. "What's wrong you freak! You stupid teachers pet!" I tried to get up, and walk away, but he kicked me. I started crying. "Leave me alone!" I cried. But he wouldn't stop he kept kicking me and hitting me. "Leave her alone!" I heard Kevin yell. That's the first time I heard him yell like that. Kevin tackled kyle to the ground. "If you ever touch her again you'll be sorry!" Kevin yelled. Kyle never messed with me again. After that day Kevin and I became great friends. We were always together. He was there for me when things went wrong. He was especially there for me when my dad passed away 4 years ago. "Jade" I remembered his quiet voicie saying the night of the funeral. I remember just standing there staring down at my dad. I felt his strong arms wrap around. I didn't even realize I was crying until I felt him rubbing my back, and whispering in my ear: "It'll be ok...everything will be ok...".
"Jade" I heard Kelvin's quiet voice as I pulled myself out of my memories. "Hmmm did you say something?" I said looking at him. "I said are you sure your ok with coming over, I don't want Eric to get mad" he said staring at me. "Eric will just have to live with the fact that you're my best friend, and I'm aloud to spend time with you" I said giving him a small smile. He smiled a little, and for a second I thought I saw him blush.
"Hey baby!" Eric exclaimed smiling when we got to.school's parking lot. I ran into his arms. "Hey!" I exclaimed smiling big. He kissed me, and handed me a beautiful bouquet of white roses. "Happy annyversarie baby girl" he said smiling. I smiled. "Eric these are beautiful" I whispered smiling. "But not as beautiful as you baby" he whispered into my ear. I giggled and smiled. I heard Kevin walk past us, and I heard Eric growl. Eric did not get along with my friends at all. "Babe calm down" I whispered as I touched his face. He took deep breaths. "I'm sorry babe..."he said quietly. "Its ok darling" I said smiling. "So I was thinking for our annyversarie....you could come back to my place....we could have some wine...maybe even-" I cut him off with a kiss. "Sweetheart I know it's our annyversarie but ummmm....mama wanted me to go with her to nana's house....."I said quietly. I didn't like lying to him, but I didn't want him getting angry or hurt because I was spending the evening with Kevin. I heard him sigh. "But babe I was hoping tonight we could...you know...try..." he said staring into my eyes. "I know...I'm sorry...I'll make it up to you I promise..." I said kissing his cheek. He smiled and whispered into my ear: "I'm gonna hold you to that".
Eric could be kinda mean sometimes, but sometimes he could be really sweet and considerate. "So I guess since your busy later I should give you this now" Eric said opening up his car door. He pulled out some more white roses and a box out. "Happy annyversarie baby girl" he said smiling as he handed me the roses. "Oh Eric you're so sweet. Mama's gonna think you raided a flower shop" I said laughing as I sniffed them. He smiled: "here's one more gift" he said as he opened up the box revealing a beautiful necklace. I gasped as he put the necklace on me. I hugged him, and I kissed him. "Thankyou so much" I said smiling. "Anything for you babe" he said kissing my head. "I see why I fell in love with you, I promise I am gonna make tonight up to you....thank you again Hon" I said smiling as I held my roses close to my heart. "Your welcome baby girl" he said smiling.
"So Mr. Jock has a soft side after all" Ushina said as we were walking to first period. I was holding my roses close to my chest. "Ushina of course he has a soft side, yes I admit he can be a jerk sometimes but in the end he proves he loves me" I said smiling. Ushina sighed. She did not like Eric at all. "Ushina....just give him a chance" I said looking at her. Ushina sighed. "I'm sorry Jade, I just hate how he treats us.....how he treats all your friends" she said quietly. I hugged her. "Ushina....he's starting to get along with you guys.....just give him some time ok?" I said quietly. She nodded, and hugged me back. "Hi" I heard Kevin's quiet voice from behind us. I smiled. "Hi" I said smiling up at him. I saw him looking at my roses and my necklace. "Eric gave them to me" I explained. "Oh..." Kevin said looking at the ground. I sighed quietly. "So are we still on for tonight?" I asked. Kevin nodded. "Ya if you want" he said quietly. I smiled, and nodded.
Eric, and I were walking out of the school hand in hand. I had his Letterman jacket on and my roses in my hand. "So how about I pick you up tomorrow babe, say 9:00?" He asked smiling. "Sounds perfect sweetheart" I said smiling. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close. "Tomorrow seems so far away" he whispered into my ear. "I know darling....but tomorrow I'm all yours" I whispered as I reached up, and kissed him deeply. He growled a playful growl. "Let me give you one more gift before you leave" he whispered into my ear. He kissed my neck making me blush. I felt him bite my neck, and I let out a little moan. He pulled away, and smiled. I smiled. "I better get going" I said smiling. He nodded, and kissed my head. I watched as he got in his car, and drove away. I sighed, and smiled. When Eric acted all sweet and romantic it made me forget all about the times when Eric had been mean to my friends. "Ready to go jade?" I heard Kevin's quiet voice from behind me. I turned around, and smiled. "Ya let's get our fun night started" I said smiling. Kevin smiled big.
We were walking to Kevin's house when I noticed Kevin was staring at my neck. "Kevin?" I said looking at him. He reached his hand out, and his ice cold fingertips gently brushed over the hickey on my neck. "Oh ummm ya.....that....its a ummm...little annyversarie gift from Eric" I said blushing. I saw Kevin stare at the ground, and pull his hand away. "Oh..."he said with a tint of sadness in his voice. I looked up at him, and I sighed a little. "So ummm what movies should we watch?" I asked trying to divert the subject. "Hmmm how about 'The Crazies'?"he suggested. I smiled. "Sounds good" I said smiling.
Horror movies usually didn't scare me, but this one was creeping me out. I was curled up close to Kevin with Eric's Letterman jacket wrapped around me. I felt Kevin put his arm around me. I looked up at him, and I saw him staring intently at me. I gulped a little. "Kevin?" I whispered. I felt his hand touch my face, and then he leaned his head in and kissed me. My eyes were wide. Kevin was kissing me. He was kissing me. But...but why? We were friends. Nothing more. I pressed my hand flat against his chest. Why wasn't I stopping this? What would Eric do if he knew I was spending our annyversarie kissing my best friend. I felt Kevin's arms go around me, and I felt him pull me close. "Kevin..." I whispered as I felt him kiss my neck. He pulled away, and stared into my eyes. I was so confused. "I-i have to go...."I whispered as I stood up. "Jade....please don't go I'm sorry" I heard him say quietly. I didn't say anything. I just quickly left his house.
"He kissed you?" Ushina said in disbelief. "Ya...I mean...I'm so confused Ushina......he's been calling me all morning.....I'm too afraid to answer" I said sighing into the receiver of the phone. "Well....maybe it was an accident..."Ushina said quietly. "An accident? How do you accidentally kiss someone?" I asked. "Well uhhhh maybe he was leaning down to look at something...and...he...kissed you" she said quietly. I laughed a little. "Ya Ushina he was looking at my lips that's what he was looking at" I said laughing. Ushina giggled. Just then I heard a knock on my door. "Hey babe you ready to go?" I heard Eric call from behind my door. "Ya dear give me a minute!" I called back. "So you and Eric are going out for the day" Ushina said. "Ya I promised him we would spend the day together since we didn't get to yesterday" I said smiling. "Well I'll let you go then talk to you later". "Talk to you later...bye" I said as I hung up. I walked out of my room and I hugged Eric. "There's my girl" he said smiling. I smiled, and I kissed him. "Lets go back to my place baby girl no one is home, and we could be alone" he whispered into my ear. I smiled. "Whatever you want baby I told you today I'm yours" I whispered back into his ear. He smiled.
As we were walking up to his room my phone vibrated. I looked at it and saw it was Kevin calling. I gulped. "Uhhhh babe I need to uhhhh use to bathroom....I'll be back" I said as I rushed into his bathroom.
"What do you want?!" I whispered into my phone so Eric wouldn't hear me. "Jade please hear me out.....I'm sorry.....that wasn't the way I wanted you to find out how I feel about you" he said quietly. "How you feel?.....Kevin......."I whispered. "Jade.........I......I love you....."he whispered.

Chapter 2: Confessions

My eyes were wide. "Kevin....." I whispered. "Jade....please don't let my stupidity ruin our friendship......please" he whispered. I gulped as I was fighting back tears. "Kevin.....your not stupid for one thing, and for another thing.....of course I'm not going to let a little kiss ruin our friendship...." I whispered wiping my tears away. "Good so I'll see you in school Monday?" He asked. "Ya I'll be there" I said smiling. "Great" he said in his quiet voice. "Bye" I whispered as I hung up. I walked out of the bathroom, and I walked into Eric's room. Eric got up out of his bed, and he pulled me close. "There's my beautiful girl" he whispered into my ear. I smiled, and I pressed my hands against his chest. He smiled, and pressed me against the wall. "This is going to be a day you'll always remember baby girl" he whispered into my ear. He started kissing my neck gently. "Baby..." he whispered into my ear. I stared into his eyes, his beautiful soft gray eyes. I found myself laying on top of the soft comforter as he kissed my chest. I felt his hands moved up my shirt, and I let out a moan. "Oh Eric" I moaned as he started kissing my chest. "Baby girl...oh babe..." he moaned as I ran my hands down his chest. This was really happening. We were really going to do this. I had butterflies in my stomach. "Babe.....I'm scared....." I whispered. His lips were at my ear. "I am too baby girl....I am too...." he whispered. I touched his face. "We've never done this before....what are we suppose to do...." I whispered. "Baby girl.....I talked to my dad before I picked you up....he told me everything.....I'm just.....I'm scared I'll be too rough, and hurt you" he whispered. I reached up, and kissed him. "Eric.....I've been thinking about this all morning.....thinking, am I really ready for this...." I whispered. "Are you?" He whispered. I smiled. "Yes.......Eric James Martin......I love you with all my heart....I want to give myself to you........I want you to be my first one.......I want you....." I whispered. He kissed me passionately. "If I hurt you......if.....if I'm too rough....please....please stop me......" he whispered. I smiled. "What if I like you being rough" I whispered smiling as I started unbuckling his belt. "I'm being serious Jade" he whispered. "So am I" I whispered back as I kissed him. I felt him smile, and he kissed me back. "I love you baby girl" he whispered. "I love you too babe" I whispered back.
"What?!" Ushina exclaimed Monday morning. "Shhhh Ushina not so loud.....yes we did it....we had sex..."I whispered. "Jade...why?" She questioned me. "He's my boyfriend Ushina...". "Your mean and nasty boyfriend!" She exclaimed. "I told you he's working on that Ushina!" I whispered. "Well it sure doesn't seem like it!" She exclaimed. "Look give him some more time ok?" I said quietly. Ushina sighed. "Fine....." she said quietly. I felt arms go around my waist. "There's my baby girl" he whispered into my ear. I blushed, and smiled. I saw Kevin walking over. "Hi Kevin!" I called out smiling. I felt Eric go stiff, and I heard him let out a little growl. "Babe what did I say about being nice" I said sternly. He sighed: "I know baby, I'm sorry" he said as he kissed my head. I gave Kevin a hug, and smiled. "Ummm......h-hi...." Kevin said as he looked at Eric. "Uh hey d-dude" Eric said quietly. I smiled. "That's more like it, my two favorite men getting along" I said smiling. Eric smiled. "So uh Kevin...do you play sports?" Eric asked trying to make conversation. "I play a bit of baseball with my brother Alex" Kevin said leaning against the wall. "Well how about you trying out this spring, it'd be nice to have some new people on the team" Eric said giving him a small smile. Kevin smiled: "I'll give it some thought".
I was sitting in class when it happened. I was working with Kevin on a worksheet for math when Kevin fell out of his desk. "Kevin?!" I exclaimed as I got up quickly. Kevin was pale, and it didn't look like he was breathing. I shook him. "Kevin! Kevin! Quick somebody call 911! Kevin!" I exclaimed. I placed my ear to his chest. No heartbeat. "Oh God....." I whispered. I started giving him CPR, and chest compressions. "Please Kevin breathe!" I cried. Still nothing. What had happened? He was fine this morning. I grabbed my phone, and called his dad. "Hello?" His dad answered. "Mr. Moore.I don't know what happened we were sitting in class and Kevin fell out of his desk and....and he's not breathing and....and he has no pulse!" I cried. "Oh God....not now....." I heard him whisper. After a minute of silence he said: "I'll be there soon..." and he hung up.
I sat there next to Kevin crying. "Come back to me please!" I cried. Our classmates just stared at us. Some girls were crying, I even heard some guys sniffling. Kevin's dad came bursting through the door. He ran over to Kevin, and kneeled next to him. "I need space everyone back away...." he told our classmates. I was squeezing Kevin's hand tightly. "Jade you too...." he said quietly. I shook my head quickly. "Honey please I need space" he said touching my hand. I looked down at Kevin, and I leaned down and kissed his ice cold forehead. I moved away, and I watched as Damien dug in his pocket for something then before I knew it he slammed his hands down on Kevin's chest. He started doing what looked like really rough chest compressions. All of a sudden Kevin's eyes opened, and he coughed. "D-dad....." he whispered. Without thinking I ran over, and hugged him crying. "Don't worry son I'm getting you help...." Damien said as he picked Kevin up. I followed them out of the school. "Jade...." Damien said quietly. "I'm coming too....."I whispered. He nodded. "Alright, I need you to sit in the back seat with him, and keep your eye on him...." Damien said as he gently placed Kevin in the backseat. I got in next to him, and I gently lifted his head and layed it on my lap. "You'll be ok...please be ok..."I whispered with tear filled eyes.
I stood in their living room with tear filled eyes. His mom Elena came in. "Here honey...drink this it'll calm your nerves..." she said as she handed me a mug of warm tea. "Thanks Mrs. Moore..." I said quietly as I took the mug. I sat down on the couch, and I stared down at the tea in the mug. I felt his mom sit next to me, and put her arm around me. "Honey...he'll be fine..."she said quietly. "How do you know..." I whispered. She held me. "I just know honey..."she whispered. I rested my head on her shoulder, and I took a sip of tea. I heard footsteps descending the stairs. "He's going to be fine Jade..." I heard Damien say. I got up quickly. "Can I see him...please" I whispered. Damien nodded. I walked upstairs to Kevin's room, and I gulped. "H-hi....." I whispered when I saw he was awake. "Hi" he said smiling. I walked over to him, and sat next to him. "How are you feeling" I said quietly trying to hold back my tears. "I feel great" he said smiling. I hugged him. "Thank God" I whispered, my voice cracking. He held me. "Now come on no blubbering like a baby now" I said jokingly. I buried my face in his neck. "I thought I lost my best friend" I whispered. He held me close, and he kissed my head. "I'm sorry I scared you..." he whispered. I looked at him. He reached his hand up, and wiped my tears away. I felt myself blush a little. I looked down, and I saw a bite mark on his wrist. It was very faint looking now. I took his wrist in my hands. "What happened...?" I whispered. He.looked down at his wrist. "I-i don't know it was there when I woke up..." he whispered back. He opened his mouth a little, and I saw a pair of sharp white fangs. I gasped, my eyes were wide. "What's wrong?" He said looking at me confused. I dug through my purse and pulled out my compact mirror. He looked at the mirror, and he too gasped when he saw the fangs. "Son..." we heard his dad say quietly. "W-what did you do to me?!" Kevin screamed. "Son......son calm down...." his dad said calmly. Kevin was breathing heavy. "Tell me now!" Kevin yelled. Damien ran his fingers through his hair and he sighed. "Kevin...you're a vampire...." his dad said still in his calm tone of voice. "A-a-a v-vampire?!" Kevin stammered shocked. My eyes were wide. "Yes....Kevin what happened to you at school was the beginning of your transformation....I rushed you back here and fed you my blood, but I also fed on yours...you are no longer your human self...you are a vampire...." Damien said quietly. Kevin looked away. "No..........no................I'm a monster" he whispered. "Kevin..." I whispered as I hugged him. "I.....I'm a monster.....a monster...." he cried. "No....no your not...you listen to me right now Kevin Gabriel Moore....you are not a monster ok......I would rather my best friend be a vampire then dead.....you don't know how scared I was when I saw you not breathing....I...I thought I lost you for good...." I whispered my voice cracking. He stared into my eyes. I wiped his tears away with my finger. He kept staring at me, and for a moment I was lost in an ocean of blue that was his eyes. "You can't tell anyone.....please...." he whispered. His voice pulled me out of my trance and I nodded slowly. We heard a knock on the door. "Uhh h-hey Kevin" I heard Eric say. I looked over. "Babe? What are you doing here?" I asked completely surprised he was here at all. "I heard what happened, and I came to see how Kevin was doing" Eric said as he walked over. "Looks like the big tough jock has a soft spot after all" Kevin said sitting up a little. "When it comes to my girlfriend of course" Eric said smiling a little. I smiled. He was really trying to make this work. Kevin smiled.
"Baby" Eric whispered to me one evening while we were in his room. "Ya sweetheart" I whispered back. "I need to ask you something...something important..." he whispered. "What is it Hon?" I asked looking up at him. He held my face in his hands. "Baby.......I love you with all of my heart... I know sometimes I can be a jerk, but.....I love you so much baby girl...you're the best thing that ever happened to me......Jade Elisabeth Leone.....will you marry me?" He asked as he pulled out a beautiful silver ring. Tears filled my eyes, and I started crying. "Yes! Oh God Eric yes!" I cried as I hugged him. He held me close, and he kissed my head. He took my left hand in his and he slid the ring on my finger. He kissed my hand gently, and he smiled. I smiled, and wiped my tears away. I couldn't believe it. I was getting married. I was really getting married. "Oh Eric you've made me so happy" I whispered as I hugged my self close to him. "Baby girl...by saying yes you made me just as happy...I promise babe you won't regret this...I promise..." he whispered. I reached up, and I kissed him.

Chapter 3: Tragedies

I never thought this would happen. I never thought something like this would happen to us. I never thought I'd be losing my Eric. As I rushed into the hospital I saw Eric's mother talking to-Kevin's father-Dr. Moore. "How is he?" I asked out of breath from rushing. Eric's mom hugged me. "Honey...........he.............he's gone........he didn't survive long after he got here........" she whispered. No. No this can't be happening. Not my fiance. Not my Eric. I ran past them, and into Eric's room. He was gone but his sheets were still messed up from him being in his bed. I curled up on his bed, and I cried. Why did that stupid truck have to hit him?! Why?! Why?! I kept thinking of this morning when I talked to him. 'I love you baby girl....I can't wait to make you mine forever...' was the last thing he'd said to me. He had sounded so happy. So full of life. Now he's gone. My Eric is gone. "Honey....." I heard Damien say. "He's gone.......my Eric is gone!" I cried. I felt Damien sit next to me. "Honey......he was in so much pain...............he kept going into cardiac arrest...............honey......aren't you happy he's not suffering anymore?" He whispered as he rubbed my arm. I shook my head. "I want my Eric back! I want him back! I want him back!" I cried. Damien held me.
When I walked into the funeral home a few days later I had Kevin on my left side and Ushina on my right. They were practically holding me up. As we got closer, and closer to the coffin I could feel my legs getting weaker. "It'll be ok Jade......it'll be ok....." Ushina whispered in tears. Ushina never liked Eric, but I know seeing me hurt was hurting her. I saw Eric's parents then I saw Eric in his coffin. I started crying hard. I hugged his parents as I cried. "Oh Jade......" his father whispered. "I want him back! I want him back!" I cried. "I know honey I know" his mom whispered. "He loved you so much......." his dad whispered in tears. "I....I loved him too....when he asked me to marry him....I was so happy" I whispered looking down at Eric. "He was so happy too.....he couldn't stop smiling" his mom whispered. I closed my eyes picturing the look on his face when I said yes. I started crying again. 'My Eric...my poor Eric...' I kept thinking over, and over. I gently touched his ice cold face with my fingertips. I bent down, and I kissed his ice cold lips one last time and I walked out of the funeral home.
I sat there on the ice cold side walk crying for so long. I wanted it to go away. I wanted the pain to go away. I dug through my purse looking for the answer. Looking for the one thing that would make my pain disappear. I felt my fingertips brush over the cold metal of my blade. I closed my eyes, and took in a deep breath as my hand grasped my blade. I haven't done this in so long. For the first time in years I was scared to do it. I pulled the blade out of my purse. It was so sharp, so clean. Soon it would be stained with red rubies. I pressed the blade to my white porcelain skin. 'Just do it...you've done it before....do it!' A voice screamed in my head. I squeezed my eyes tightly shut. I pressed the blade against my skin. White porcelain was stained red in those next moments. So much red. The warm liquid dripped from the wound and onto my black heels. I could feel my heart beating extremely hard, and fast. 'Again!' The voice in my head screamed. I pressed the blade to my wrist again. "Jade" I heard Ushina's voice coming from the entrance to the funeral home. "Oh no......" I whispered. I pulled my blade away, and I accidentally left a long cut going down my arm. Blood was flowing from my wound fast. "Oh God......no......" I whispered as I clutched my arm, trying to stop the bleeding. "Jade?" I heard Ushina call out again. "U-Ushina..........." I whispered. My vision was getting blurry. "Jade!" I heard Ushina yell. She saw me. Thank God. I tried walking towards her, but my legs gave way and I fell. "Jade! Oh my God! Somebody help!" Ushina screamed at the top of her lungs. I heard people rushing out of the funeral home. I could hear Eric's dad on the phone with 911. "Jade!" I heard Kevin's voice. "K.....ev.....in......" I whispered, my voice getting fainter. I felt pressure being applied to my wound. "Keep your eyes open Jade! Keep them open!" Ushina yelled. I was so tired. So very tired. I tried to keep my eyes open, but before I knew it they slowly closed. 'Jade....' I heard a familiar voice. Who was it? Where was I? 'Jade....' came the voice again. I looked around. "Who's there!" I called out. 'Baby girl....it's me....' the voice said. "E-eric?" I whispered. I saw him step out of the darkness. He held his arms out, and smiled. Tears fell from my eyes, and I ran into his arms. "Oh Eric! My Eric! My Eric!" I cried. He held me. "My beautiful girl" he whispered as he held me. I looked up at him with tear filled eyes. "Why baby girl....why...." he said sadly. "W-why what babe?" I whispered almost silent. "Why did you kill yourself baby.......why did you leave your family, and your friends behind" he whispered. Killed myself? I...I killed myself? "Babe.....no...I.....I couldn't of.....I......I just passed out......" I whispered. He held me close. "They're trying to bring you back......go back baby girl.....you have to" he whispered. I shook my head quickly. "No babe no! Please don't make me Eric! Please baby please!" I cried. He held me close. I could feel my soul drifting away from his. Eric gave me one final kiss. A kiss I will always remember. "I love you so much Jade Elisabeth Leone....you were my whole world....and even in death you still are...." he whispered. "I love you too Eric James Martin forever and ever" I whispered.
"I think she's waking up" I heard zoom say. "I think you're right dude her heart monitor just quickened" I heard Alex say. My eyes fluttered open, and I looked around. I felt a breathing tube in my nose, and my throat felt scratchy. "W-where am I?" I whispered in a raspy voice.
"The hospital......."Ushina said quietly. "H-hospital?" I whispered. "Stay here with her you two I have to go get Kevin" Alex said as he left the room. I tried sitting up. "Stay down Jade....you need to rest" zoom said pushing me down. I stared up at the ceiling. I kept thinking over, and over about Eric. About our final goodbye kiss. I heard the door open. "Jade oh thank God you're awake!" I heard Kevin exclaim. I heard Kevin run over, and hug me. 'Baby girl...' I could hear Eric's voice. A tear fell from my eye. I felt my arms wrap around him, and I hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry......" I whispered. "Jade....you scared me to death" he whispered. "I know...I'm sorry...." I whispered in tears. He held me tight. I had hurt him. I had hurt my best friend. "Come on Kevin she needs to rest..." I heard Ushina say. Kevin nodded. "If you need anything....anything at all....just call, I'll be right outside the door. I nodded slowly. When he left I turned my head, and stared out the window. I was hurting everyone. Everyone I loved I was hurting. "Why God? Why?" I whispered. A tear fell from my eye. I just wanted this pain to go away. I just wanted it all to stop. I heard the door open, and shut. I didn't turn to see who it was, but I felt a warm hand on my shoulder. At that moment I felt a sort of peace come over me. "Sleep" a soft comforting voice whispered into my ear. Before I knew it I slowly drifted off to sleep.

Chapter 4: Am I Ready To Move On?
"You look a lot better honey" my mom said the next morning. "Ya mama I feel much better" I said giving her a small smile. "Sissy youw not sad anymore..." Liam said as he touched my face with his little hand. I smiled. "Yes baby, I'm not......sissy is so sorry honey" I whispered as I hugged him tightly. He hugged me tightly back. "I wove you sissy....I wove you so much" he whispered. "I love you too baby" I whispered. I felt so happy, so free. I felt at peace. Eric wasn't suffering anymore. "Look who's awake" I heard Kevin's dad say. "Hi Dr. Moore" I said smiling. "Well Jade miraculously your condition is much better" he said smiling. "It's an answer to prayer" my mom said as she kissed my head. I smiled. "Dr. Moore where's Kevin?" I asked. "He went home sweetheart...I thought it would be best if he went home, and rested" he said as he kissed my head. Dr. Moore had always been like a second father to me. "When can I be released?" I asked. "Soon honey, just focus on resting and getting stronger ok?" He said kissing my forehead. I nodded. "Get some rest baby, I'm going to take Liam down to the cafeteria to get something to eat" my mom said as she kissed my head. "Alright mama" I said smiling. When I Was alone in my room I called Kevin.
"Hello?" Kevin said on the other end of the phone. "Guess who" I said smiling. "Jade! Hey!" He said happily. I giggled. "How are you? Are you feeling better?" He asked. I smiled. "I'm feeling a lot better, I'm ready to come home but your dad won't let me" I said as I twirled the phone cord around my finger. "Well I'm sure he just wants to make sure your not going to relapse" Kevin said in his quiet voice. I sighed. "I know, I know" I said sighing. "I miss you..." Kevin said quietly. I felt myself blush. "I......I miss you too" I said quietly back. "I'm coming to see you..." he said. "Kevin...you don't have to" I insisted. "I want to...I'll be by soon" Kevin said.
As I lay in bed I heard knocking on my window. I looked over, and saw Kevin. "Kevin!?" I called out. He opened up my window, and climbed in. "Hey there" he said smiling. "How did you do that?!" I questioned. "Vampire remember" he said smiling. "Oh ya I forgot" I said smiling. He sat on the edge of my bed. "How are you feeling?" He asked smiling. "A lot better..." I said smiling. "And....how are you dealing with.......with Eric's loss" Kevin asked quietly. I thought at the sound of his name I would burst into tears. But I didn't. "I'm at peace...I know....I know that he's not suffering anymore...." I said giving him a small smile. He hugged me. "I never liked him, but he did treat you good" Kevin said quietly. I nodded and rested my head on his shoulder. I felt him rubbing my back. I blushed a little, my body went a little stiff. 'It's ok baby girl......if he comforts you then don't be afraid to hug him or to be with Jim's I heard Eric's voice in my head. I smiled a little, and I hugged Kevin tightly.
"Jade! Kevin's here!" My mom called up to me one cool spring afternoon. I ran down my stairs in my short black shorts, and my gray ghost girl tank top. I felt great. Even though it was only months since I had been discharged I felt like a new person. "Hi!" I said smiling as I hugged him. He hugged me gently. "Hey there how are feeling?" He asked me smiling. "I'm feeling a lot better" I said smiling. "Good" he said smiling. "Are you hungry Kevin? I just made some fresh cookies and tea" my mom said. "I would love some of your lovely cooking Mrs. Leone" Kevin said in a very distinguishable Romanian accent. I smiled as Kevin, and I walked into the kitchen. We sat at the table as mom placed warm mugs of tea and a plate of cookies infront of us. When mom turned her back Kevin pulled out a tiny vial. "What's that?" I asked curiously. He stared down at me with his alluring sky blue eyes. "I'll tell you later" he said smiling. I smiled, and watched as he opened up the tiny vial and dropped some liquid into his tea and onto his cookies. "So Kevin how's your sister been feeling? Your mother was telling me she was sick" mom said as she washed the dishes. "She's feeling better ma'am it was just a cold" Kevin said smiling. I looked up at him and watched as he bit into his cookie. No fangs. His fangs were gone. I opened my mouth to say something, but Kevin touched my hand stopping me. "Later" he mouthed to me. I nodded, and bit into a cookie. "HI SISSY! HI KEVIN!" Liam squeeled giggling. "Hey there squirt!" Kevin said laughing as he picked him up. Liam giggled. I smiled a little. "Hey buddy how about you, and I go out and play a little football" Kevin said smiling. Liam nodded. "Yay! Footbaww!" He squeeled happily. Kevin smiled, and picked him up and carried him outside. My mom smiled. "Liam really loves Kevin" mom said smiling. I smiled. "He's like a big brother to Liam" I said smiling. I looked out the window and watched as Liam tackled Kevin, and Kevin went down laughing.
"You know Jade, maybe it would be good if you moved on....Kevin...he really likes you..." Ushina said over the phone. I lay on my bed, and I sighed. "Ushina............what if.....what if something bad happens again...." I said quietly. "Jade........you can't just assume what happened with Eric will happen again....." Ushina said quietly. I looked out my window, and watched Kevin and Liam play. ".............am I ready to move on........." I whispered. "Jade.........you deserve to be happy" Ushina said quietly. I sighed quietly. "I just.........I don't want to lose anyone else I love.....including him....." I whispered as a tear fell from my eye. "I know Jade......I know.........listen I have to go but give it some thought ok? I think you would be very happy with Kevin.....if you need anything just call me or text me......" she said quietly. "Alright.....thanks Ushina......" I said quietly. "Your welcome Jade" Ushina said. She hung up leaving me alone with my thoughts.
Was I truely ready to move on? To forget about Eric.....to love Kevin? I looked at a picture of Eric, and I that was sitting on my nightstand. "Babe........." I whispered. I closed my eyes, and pictured Eric in my mind's eye. Could I do it? Could I be strong enough to move on? Just then there was a knock on my door. I jumped a little. "Jade? Can I come in?" I heard Kevin say. I sat up quickly. "Y-ya just a minute!" I called out as I got up out of my bed. I walked over to the door, and I opened it. Kevin smiled. "C-come on in" I said stepping aside. 'I think you would be very happy with Kevin' Ushina's words rang in my head. I watched as Kevin walked over to my bed, and sat down. I shut my door, and took in a deep breath. I went to turn around, but I hesitated. I was afraid. I was truly afraid. But what was I afraid of? Afraid of Kevin? No. Never. Kevin was my best friend. Was I afraid of what would happen if I turned around, and stared into his beautiful sky blue eyes long enough? No. I was afraid of change. Afraid that if I moved on I would forget about Eric. Forget his smile, his voice, the way he used to touch me so gently as if I would break like glass. "Jade" Kevin's voice cut through my thoughts like a knife. "Jade is everything alright?" Kevin asked quietly. I turned around quickly. 'Y-ya I'm....I'm fine....." I whispered as I walked over to my window and looked out. I felt Kevin touch my shoulder. I jumped a little with surprise. "No you're not fine........what's going on...tell me please" he pleaded. I sighed quietly, and looked at him. My eyes met his, and immediately I was lost in that beautiful sea of blue. "I.......I............." I tried speaking, but I couldn't form the words I wanted to say. My mind wandered back to that fateful night Kevin had kissed me. I had felt strange about it then. How would I feel if he kissed me now? "You what? Jade? Jade?" He called trying to get my attention. I gulped. "Kiss me...." I whispered. "What?" He whispered sounding confused. "Kiss me" I said a bit louder. I stared into his eyes a bit longer, then I slowly closed my eyes waiting for his soft, cold lips to touch mine. It seemed like an eternity before he finally pressed his lips against mine. Memories of Eric, and I kissing ran through my head like a river. But then the images in my mind changed. I could see Kevin kissing me that night at his house. I could see his sky blue eyes staring into mine. His eyes were so full of love. Love for me. I felt him pull away, and I opened my eyes. He was staring down at me intently. 'Move on baby girl....' I could hear Eric's soft voice enter my mind. I was holding back tears. 'Move on....' his voice whispered. I wrapped my arms up behind Kevin's neck, and I hugged myself close to him. I stared into his eyes for a while then I brought my lips to his in a kiss. Yes. I was ready for this. To move on. I wouldn't forget Eric. I knew that now. Eric would live on in my heart and in my memories. I could truly be happy now.

Chapter 5: New Beginnings
As I was walking to school that next morning I heard my phone going off in my Hello Kitty purse. I stopped walking, and I dug through my purse for it. "Ugh why do I have so much junk in here" I grumbled as I dug through my purse trying to find my phone. "There you are!" I exclaimed as I pulled it out from underneath the book I had been reading. I looked at it, and saw I had one missed call from Kevin. A small smile crossed my face. I typed his number in, and I called him back. His phone rang and rang as I walked. Finally he picked up. "Hello?" Came the sound of his q uiet velvet voice from the other end of the phone. "Hi. Sorry I didn't answer I had to dig through all my junk to get to my phone" I said smiling. "It's alright baby" he said smoothly. I cringed a little at the word. I was so used to Eric calling me baby. I knew it would take a while for me to get used to someone else calling me that. "So how's your morning been?" I asked smiling. "It's a lot better now that I'm talking to you Dragostea mea" he said in his fluid Romanian voice. "Dra.....gost....what?" I said confused. He laughed. " Dragostea mea...it means my love in Romanian" he said still laughing a little. He had never spoken to me in Romanian before. To tell you the truth I didn't even know Kevin was Romanian till our freshman year in highschool. "Oh. Dragostea mea" I said practically butchering the word. "It's a confusing language, maybe later you can come by and I can teach you some". I smiled a little. A slight blush crept across my cheeks. "Maybe" I said smiling. "I'll be at school soon babe.... I've gotta get Alex up so I'll talk to you later" he said lovingly. I smiled a little. "Alright" I said quietly. "I love you" he said again in the same loving tone. I took in a deep breath. "I.....I love you too" I said with a small smile.
When I got to school I saw Ushina, and Zoom together. I walked up to them. "You look really nice today" zoom said smiling. "Thanks" I said smiling back. "Lets see your wearing a skirt, your hair's up, you have your make up done up all nice...did something happen that I think happened?" Ushina asked smiling. I nodded and smiled. Ushina hugged me tightly. "That's great! I'm so happy for you!" She exclaimed smiling. I smiled. "You were right Ushina....I need to move on....I gave it a lot of thought, and I came to the conclusion that Eric will always be with me...no matter what" I said smiling. Zoom smiled. "He really likes you Jade" Zoom said smiling. "I know" I said smiling back. "Oooooo here he comes now!" Ushina exclaimed happily. I turned around and saw Kevin coming through the doors of the school. He had his gorgeous midnight black hair slicked back, and he had on a tight fitting black tank top. My face was hot. I just knew I was as red as a tomato. I saw a small smile tugging at his lips as he walked up to me. I smiled a little. "There's my girl" he said as he pulled me close. I blushed. He leaned his head in towards me, and he kissed me. "Awwwwww!" Ushina exclaimed. I smiled a little. Kevin chuckled a little. "You really are happy about this aren't you" Kevin said laughing a little. "Yes! You two are so cute!" She said all happy, and bubbly. "Thanks Ushina" I said smiling. She smiled big.
As Kevin, and I were doing our math work together I felt Kevin place his big hand on my knee. I blushed, and looked at him. He was staring at me intently. "What?" I said smiling a little. He smiled: "I'm sorry, I was just mesmerized by your beauty" he said lovingly in his Romanian accent. I blushed. Eric used to tell me all the time that I was beautiful, but I never believed it. I looked down at our paper. "I'm not pretty..." I said quietly. He culled my face in his big hands. "Your right....your not pretty....your gorgeous baby girl" he whispered as he stared into my eyes.
I blushed. "R-really?" I whispered as his face got closer to mine. "Yes" he breathed as his lips were just inches from mine. "PDA!" his twin brother Alexander yelled. I jumped. Kevin groaned. "Dude really" Kevin said scowling. Alex laughed. "Sorry bro, but I couldn't resist" Alex said laughing. I smiled a little. Alex was like my brother. I loved him deeply. "Hi Alex" I said smiling. He hugged me. "Hey sis" he said smiling. Alexander had always considered me his sister. We were really close. "Alex your always the class clown" I said smiling. He smiled and kissed my forehead. "You've got that right sis" he said laughing. I smiled. "Well I'll let you two get back to your little worksheet" he said making quotation marks with his fingers. I smiled and blushed. Kevin shook his head smiling. "Only Alex could ruin a perfect moment like that" he said smiling. I reached up, and gave him a quick kiss. I watched as his face turned beat red. "Uhhhhhhhh" was all he could get out. I giggled at the fact that I had left him speechless. A small smile came across his lips. He picked up my hand in his big hands. "Te iubesc cu toata inima" he whispered as he delicately kissed my hand. I blushed. I had no idea what it meant but it sounded romantic indeed. I turned my head to the side, my white bangs fell in front of my eyes. Kevin touched my face. "I can't resist......I.....I can't" he whispered as he touched my face. I blushed. "Then let's go somewhere where we can be alone" I whispered as I pressed my hands against his chest. I didn't know what was going on with me. I felt so...so different. I felt a rush of adrenalin shot through my veins as Kevin, and I snuck out of the classroom. Eric, and I had never done anything like this before. This was new. A new beginning for me. Sneaking around like this. Running through the abandoned stairwells. Yes, this was definately new.

Chapter 6: Why Is Love So Confusing
Kevin pressed me against the wall, and he kissed me passionately. I felt myself grab onto his shirt, and I was kissing him back with just as much passion and force as he was. "I could eat you up Dragoste " he whispered into my ear. I blushed. "Who's stopping you" I whispered back. He started kissing my neck. My heart was racing. I thought it would jump right out of my chest. This was what I wanted. I wanted this. I wanted him. I wanted him to take me right here, right now. "I want you so bad" I whispered. He paused for a moment. I knew that surprised him a lot considering I had never shown feelings towards Kevin ever before. He touched my face. "I want you too" he breathed. I kissed him again, this time it was more forceful. I was being forceful. Me. The innocent one. "I love you" I whispered against his lips. Those words. They came so freely. "I need you,....I want you" he whispered. I was hugging myself close to him. "Our parents would kill us if they knew we were doing this instead of learning math" I said with a slight giggle. Kevin chuckled. "Let's do a little math right now Dragul.......You + Me=Forever and Ever Baby...." he whispered, his sky blue eyes aglow with emotion. I blushed. "My parents aren't home...what do you say we go back to my house..."he whispered as he caressed my face. "Sounds like a plan" I whispered smiling.
We were laying up in Kevin's bed practically making out. Of course I was used to this, but not with him. It was like I was under a spell. No. I was under a spell. His spell. The way he was kissing me, the way he was gently holding me, the way his body felt pressed up against mine, that's what was keeping me under his spell. I knew he was nervous. I was his first girlfriend ever. Kevin never talked much, especially to girls. "You know for no experience you sure know what your doing" I whispered smiling. "Well lets just say, between Tv and my parents, I've had enough experience" he said chuckling. I laughed, and rested my head on his shoulder. He held me close. "You know...you never did explain to me what was going on at my house" I said as I played with his hair. "Well, I just figured this out recently, but the reason my fangs weren't out at your house is because they only come out at night" he said as he kissed my head. I looked out my window, and saw it was.nightfall. "it's getting dark out...can I see them?" I asked smiling. He smiled, and walked over to my window. I watched his body slowly change with the falling sun. His fangs slowly grew, and his fingernails slowly turned into claws. His skin looked aglow in the moonlight that was. leaking through my window. I got up, and walked up to him. "Wow" I whispered. He smiled. "So tell me...how scatter am I" he said with a slight chuckle. I smiled. "Oh your a big scatter vampire! Look at those fangs! And those claws! Oh my, who will save me!" I humored him. He laughed. "Very convincing" he said laughing. I laughed, and smiled. "Now about that Romanian" I said smiling. "You just want to learn everything tonight don't you" he said smiling. "Yupp" I said smiling big. He smiled. His smile looked so seductive. He lowered his head until his lips were at my ear. "How about we have a little fun then I teach you some Romanian" he whispered. I gulped. "F-fun..." I whispered. He nodded smiling. He pressed me up against the wall. Oh my. This was really happening. Why was I so nervous? Eric, and I had done it. What was wrong with me? I wanted him so bad back at school...what was wrong with me?! Kevin ran his hands up my short tattered skirt. "I'll be gentle I promise" he whispered into my ear. I took deep breaths. No. I thought I was ready, but I'm not. "Kevin.........." I whispered as he started kissing my neck. "Yes, baby girl" he whispered in the nape of my neck. "I......I......" I couldn't make the words come out. They refused to come out. "You what baby girl?" he whispered as he lifted his head. "I......I.......I'm not ready for this....." I whispered. He turned his head to the side a little. "Your not ready? But.......but why aren't you....it's not like this is new to you" he said quietly. I looked away. "But this is new to me Kevin........with you it's new......." I whispered. He looked away. "Kevin......" I whispered as I touched his face. He quietly sighed. "Kevin......give me sometime to get used to this......we just started dating....."I whispered. He stared down at me. "Please don't hate me......" I whispered trying to hold back tears. He held me. "I don't hate you..." he whispered. "I'm sorry........I'm sorry I was leading you on back at school....." I whispered. He ran his fingers gently through my hair. "It's alright.....I guess I was moving too fast..." he whispered. I felt bad. I wished there was some way I could make it up to him. I pressed my hand against his chest. "I.....I........." my mouth felt as though it was full of cotton. "M-maybe we c-can t-tr-" he cut me off with a gentle kiss. "It's ok Jade...if you're not comfortable then we can wait until you are ready...."he said quietly. I smiled, and hugged him. "Thank you.......thank you for being so understanding Kevin" I said quietly. "You're welcome baby" he whispered as he kissed my head.
That night as I lay in my bed all I could think about was him. Was how I had been scared. I sat up, and ran my fingers through my hair. "Ugh....Jade your so stupid" I whispered to myself. I looked around my room, and sighed. "Maybe he's awake..." I whispered to myself as I took my phone out of my nightstand drawer. I looked at my Hello Kitty clock and saw it read 3:30am. "Ugh! Of course he won't be up at freaking 3:30 in the morning!" I groaned. This was killing me! What I had done is killing me! I need to talk to him! I layed my head back against my pillow. I felt so bad about this afternoon. "What's wrong with me........" I whispered to myself. Why is love so confusing. One minute I'm ready for him to take me, the next I chicken out. Ugh. Why?! "Calm down Jade.....give yourself some time......" I whispered to myself. I lay back down in my bed hoping and praying tomorrow would be a better day.

Chapter 7: A Little Talk
"Jade.....hey Jade are you listening to me?" Kevin asked as we were driving to the mall the next morning. "Huh? I'm sorry I zoned out" I said looking at him. He placed his hand on my knee. "It's ok baby girl...where do you want to grab a bite to eat" he asked smiling. "Ummm...I-I don't care...anywhere is fine" I said running my fingers through my hair. "Are you sure you're ok? You're acting strange" he said looking over at me. "Y-ya Kevin I'm fine" I said quietly. As we pulled into the mall parking lot I heard him sigh. "Look...is this still about last night...I said I was sorry for rushing things" he said looking at me. I looked at him. "No Kevin...I'm just tired...I had a rough night" I said quietly. He gently touched my face. I loved his gentleness. He was never too rough with me. He leaned in and gently kissed me. I felt my face go hot as I kissed him back. "Kevin....I'm sorry" I whispered against his lips. " Dragoste don't be....I'm not mad.....I could never be mad at you love" he whispered back. I smiled a gentle smile.
I was in the dressing room at hot topic trying on a few new outfits. "Are you almost ready!" Kevin's voice rang out from behind the door. "Hold on! I just gotta get my zipper up!" I called back as I reached behind me to pull the zipper on my tight black dress up. "There" I said to myself as I looked in the mirror. I opened up the door, and I giggled as I watched Kevin's jaw drop. "Well..." I said as I turned around in a circle and fixed my hair. "You look gorgeous" he whispered smiling. I hugged him gently. I felt him hugging me back. "You know...this dress would be perfect for the Prom that's coming up soon" he said smiling. "I like it for two reasons....one I love the way it looks and feels...and two...the look on your face when I came out was priceless" I said giggling. He chuckled. "Can I help it that you look so sexy in this dress" he said smiling. I blushed bright red. He laughed. "I knew that would make your face go red!" He said laughing. I smacked his chest lightly, and I giggled. "Go get changed babe I'm gonna look around a bit more" he said smiling. I smiled, and I reached up on my tip toes and kissed him. "I love you" I whispered against his lips. "I love you too" he whispered back. I walked into the dressing room smiling. I wanted to make it up to him. I felt terrible about leading him on yesterday. As I got changed I kept running scenarios through my mind. Would I try and seduce him tonight..........in the car. When? I walked out of the dressing room I saw Kevin and I smiled. I snuck up behind him and I wrapped my arms around him. "Hey" he said in his quiet voice. "Hey" I said smiling. I ran my hands up his shirt a little, and I traced his abs with my index finger. Maybe this would work I thought to myself. I heard him gasp a little as I traced his abs. I stood up on my tip toes until my lips were at his ear. "What should we do now....we could go back to my place.....or maybe yours...." I whispered trying to make my voice sound seductive. I heard him gulp. "What brought this on...." he whispered. "I just.....I......" I stopped my sentence dead in it's tracks. Could I tell him? What if he didn't want to try if I told him I felt bad about the other night. Would he still make me wait? "You what baby girl...." he whispered. "I just.....I.....I think I'm ready....." I whispered. "It took you one whole night to get ready for something as big as.....you know....." he said quietly. "Y-ya........" I whispered trying to sound convincing. He turned around and stared down at me. He bent down till his lips were at my ear. "Your lying Dragoste" he whispered ever so quietly. I gulped. "N-no I'm not........I'm ready......I......I am......" I said trying to sound convincing. "Jade......I'm not doing anything with you until your truely ready...." he said sternly. "Why not?!" I yelled. People were starting to look at us. " Dragoste calm down" Kevin said pulling me out of the store. I pulled my arm from his grasp. "I thought you wanted this?! I thought you wanted me?!" I yelled. "I do!" He yelled back. That was the first time I had ever heard Kevin yell. "Then why won't you have sex with me?!" I screamed. "Because your not ready! I can see it in your eyes Jade!" He yelled. "Yes I am!" I yelled. "Jade this conversation is over! Let's go!" He yelled. I pushed him away from me. "You know what...screw you!" I yelled as I stormed off.
I arrived at the house of the one person who I know could help me. I walked up the steps of the front porch, and I knocked on the door. As I stood there waiting I heard my phone go off. I grabbed it, and saw Kevin was calling me. I growled, and hit ignore. Just then the door opened, and I saw Ushina's dad Claudiance standing there. "Hello Jade....what are you doing here?" He asked smiling. "I-i need to talk to Ushina....." I said quietly. "Alright. She's upstairs in her room..." Claudiance said inviting me into his home. "Thank you sir" I say as I ascend the steps.
I knock on Ushina's door, and wait. After a few seconds she opened her door. "Jade?" She said surprised to see me. "C-can we talk...." I said quietly. "Of course....come on in" she said smiling. I walked into her room, and I sat down on the edge of her bed. My phone was going crazy in my pocket. I tried ignoring it. I wanted to throw it against the wall so bad. "So did you need something?" Ushina asked. I looked at her. "I......I don't know what's wrong with me Ushina.....yesterday....Kevin, and I we....we skipped class......I...I wanted him so bad....then when we got back to his place.....all those feelings changed......then today....today I felt bad about yesterday, and.....I tried seducing him....h-he pushed me away, and....and I yelled at him.....and.....and now......now i-i think he hates me...." I said quietly holding back tears. Ushina sat next to me. "Jade I'm sure he doesn't hate you........" she said as she rubbed my back. ".......I just........I just want to move on.....to forget......" I gulped and started to cry. "You want to forget Eric....." Ushina whispered. I nodded. After all this time I thought I was ready to move on but I truely wasn't. "Jade.......you're never going to forget Eric......no matter how hard you try.....he was your first love......you will never forget him...." Ushina said rubbing my back. "I miss him!" I cried. Ushina hugged me. "I know..........you try to hide it....but I can see it in your eyes......I can see the pain in your eyes....." she whispered as she held me. I was crying quietly into my best friend's shoulder. "Let it out Jade.....it's ok to cry.....let it out......" Ushina whispered as she rubbed my back. I was crying hard. Something I hadn't done since the night Eric died. "It's not fair! First my daddy then Eric! It's not fair!" I screamed. "Jade he was suffering...........he was suffering so bad........they had to keep reviving him over and over........" she whispered. I looked at her. "W-what....." I whispered. "I was talking to his sister......she said they couldn't keep him alive......they kept having to revive him....." Ushina whispered. I stared at the ground, my eyes were wide. "Why......why didn't anyone tell me...." I whispered. "Because....we thought it was best for you Jade....especially after your suicide attempt...." Ushina whispered. I stared at the ground. My hands were shaking. I knew he had been going into cardiac arrest, but I didn't know he kept dying. "Jade....." Ushina whispered. "Ushina.............I'm a horrible person......" I whispered back in tears. "Jade........no......no your not........" she whispered back. "Yes I am......Kevin's been trying to call me, and I keep ignoring him...what kind of girlfriend am I....." I whispered in tears. "Jade..........you need to talk things through with him.....you two need to work things out...he loves you Jade.....one fight isn't going to change that...." she said quietly as she rubbed my back. "C-can I c-call him here...." I whispered as I whiled my tears away. "Of course" she said smiling. I took my phone out and I called Kevin. "Hello?" Kevin's quiet voice said from the other end of the line. "K-kevin......." I said quietly. "J-jade.......uhh....h-hey" he said quietly. "C-can we talk........." I said quietly. "Y-ya...........d-did you want to meet up somewhere to talk...." he asked quietly. I looked over at Ushina. She was mouthing Yes. "S-sure.....I.....I'll meet you at the park...." I said quietly. I put my phone away, and I took in a deep breath. "Jade.......don't be nervous.....everything will be fine...." Ushina said giving me a hug. I nodded, and hugged her back.
As I sat on the park bench waiting for Kevin I watched a squirrel run by with a nut in its tiny mouth. I smiled a little as it climbed up on the bench next to me. I quietly as it ate the nut. I heard someone walking up behind me. "Jade" I heard his quiet voice. I turned around, and I saw Kevin standing there. "H-hey" I said quietly. Kevin sat down next to me. The squirrel didn't seem bothered by him sitting there. The squirrel actually seemed to be content with us being there. "So ummm......y-you wanted to talk...." he said quietly. "Y-ya.....Kevin.....I am so sorry....I had no right to blow up at you like I did....it's just....I felt so bad.....the truth is....I guess I still miss Eric, and I've been trying to keep those feelings inside.....and after I told you no....I just.....I felt horrible......I just wanted to make you happy......" I said tearing up. He held me close. "Jade...........you do make me happy..........I wasn't mad when you said no........I don't want to ever put you in a situation where you feel uncomfortable....." he said as hr gently rubbed my back. A small smile crossed my lips. He understood. He wasn't mad at me. I looked up into his beautiful sky blue eyes. A tear slowly fell from my eye. "I'm sorry" I whispered my voice cracking. He held me close. "You don't need to apologize..........." he whispered. I looked up at him with tear filled eyes. He leaned his head down and he pressed his soft cold lips against mine. I felt his fangs elongated, and I opened my eyes. Right above us was the beautiful, bright full moon. A small smile came across my face. I looked into Kevin's beautiful glowing blue eyes, and I smiled. Everything was going to be alright between us. Sure it was complicated, but in the end love provails.

Chapter 8: The B.R.S
It was the night before prom, and Ushina were scrambling to get everything we needed in time. As Ushina, and I walked through the mall we couldn't help but giggle at the thought of prom. "I can't believe it....tomorrow night's the prom!" I squeeled giggling. "I know!" Ushina squeeled as well. "So....do you think you and Kevin will finally...you know...." Ushina asked smiling. "I don't know.....we've talked about it a few times in the past month, but we both agreed to wait until we were both ready...." I said as I bit my lip. Ushina smiled. "You're nervous aren't you?" She asked smiling. I nodded. "Yes, incredibly nervous....." I said putting pressure on my lip. "Don't worry Jade, just think about how much fun tonight will be. That will get your mind off of things" she said smiling. I nodded, and smiled a little.
Later on that evening I was in my room waiting for Kevin to come get me. I was so nervous. This was prom. It was really here. "Jade! Sweetheart! Kevin's here" my mama called from downstairs. I took a deep breath, and looked out my window at the beautiful stars glowing in the sky. This night, was going to be a nigh I would remember forever.
"You look beautiful" Kevin said quietly as we were driving to prom. I blushed. "T-thank you..." I said smiling. I looked over at him. "You look really handsome" I said smiling. He looked over at me, and smiled. "So....do you think your mother will mind if you, and I rent a hotel room tonight?" He asked smiling. I giggled. "Kevin you know my mama...she is not going to like me spending the night in a hotel room with a boy" I said smiling. A sad look crossed his face. "Oh......." he said quietly. "But...she will let me stay over Ushina's house" I said smiling. He smiled. "Good...I made reservations at a nice little motel" he said smiling. I smiled. "That sounds perfect Kevin I couldn't think of a better way to spend my evening then with my wonderful handsome boyfriend" I said smiling as I rested my head on his shoulder. This night was going to be perfect...I just knew it.
"It's about time you two made it!" Ushina exclaimed smiling. "Traffic was bad" Kevin said as he ran his fingers through his hair. "So lets get in there!" She exclaimed smiling. Kevin chuckled, and shook his head. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach going wild as Kevin, and I walked into the building. I looked around in amazement. "Oh my.......this is....this is amazing...."I whispered as I looked around in awe. The decorations were absolutely amazing. There were different colored lights dancing off the walls creating the many illusions of night. There were stars dancing upon the ceiling, and there was a beautiful bright moon-another creation of the illusory lights. "It's beautiful" Ushina said looking around. I saw Zoom whispering something into Ushina's ear. I knew he had to of said one of the many poetic sweet things he always said to her by the way her face turned as red as a tomato. As we were walking out onto the dance floor I nudged Ushina. "So what did Mr. Romance whisper into your ear" I said giggling. She giggled. "He just keeps reminding me of the plans for tonight" she said blushing. I giggled. "Oooo sounds like you two are gonna have some fun!" I said giggling. "Shut up!" She said giggling too. "So what about you, and Kevin...what are your plans for tonight?" She asked smiling. "Well, after the prom we're going to go ti a nice little motel, and spend the rest of the evening together." I said probably smiling like a idiot. "He's such a good guy...I'm glad you two are together" she said smiling. "So am I Ushina...so am I" I said smiling.
Kevin, and I were dancing together to one of my favorite songs: "You Don't Know You're Beautiful" by One Direction. He twirled me slowly around in a circle. "You light up the world like nobody else...the way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed....right now...I look in your eyes, it ain't hard to tell....you don't know....you don't know your beautiful....that's what makes you beautiful" Kevin sang into my ear. I smiled, and I ran my fingers through his short, shaggy, midnight black hair. "You are so beautiful....my heart aches at the site of your beauty Dragoste...." he whispered as he stared down at me. I looked at the ground. "N-no I'm not....." I said in a quiet tone of voice. He touched my face gently with the backs of his fingers. "Baby.......yes you are......you're gorgeous......." he whispered as he stared into my eyes. "Really........"I whispered. My self esteem was very low. Since I was constantly bullied I didn't believe I was pretty. Eric told me all the time how beautiful I was, but I could never believe it. Kevin's eyes slowly started changing Color. They went from the beautiful gem of blue to a very beautiful velvet red. "Yes, you....you are the most beautiful girl on this planet. No beauty queen, or cheerleaders, or even the most beautiful vampire could compare to your beauty......your perfect just the way you are" he whispered gently. A small smile tugged at the corner of my mouth. "......thank you......thank you for....for loving me, and being there for me......I love you so much" I whispered as a tear fell from my eye. "I love you too" he whispered as he wiped my slowly falling tears away. This moment was the moment of truth. Yes. Tonight was the night. The night we became one. I knew that now. I knew that as soon as those words left his mouth that I was ready. I reached up on my tip toes until my face was just inches from his. Even in my six inch heels he was still too tall for me. As I stared into those velvety red eyes I slowly brought my lips to his. "I love you" I whispered. "Te iubesc prea darling" he whispered as he held me close.
As Kevin, and I were driving to the motel I could feel the butterflies in my stomach going crazy again. I took in a deep breath. I was trying to remind myself to calm down, and breathe. Kevin squeezed my hand. "Jade....if you're still not entirely ready we don't have to do this..." he said quietly. I looked over at him, and I picked up his big hand. "No, I'm ready.....just....just nervous...." I said kissing his knuckles. As we drove down the street I looked up at the stars, and smiled. "It's so beautiful tonight" I whispered. "Yes....yes...it is a very beautiful night....but your beauty outshines it all" he said smiling. I blushed, and giggled. I placed his hand on my knee, and I rested my head on his shoulder. I could see the motel in sight. I breathed in, and out deeply as we pulled into the parking lot. It was time. Time for us to become one. One body. One soul. Kevin parked the truck, and he helped me out. "Ready?" He asked with a tint of nervousness in his voice. I nodded. "Ready" I said quietly. We walked into the building together hand in hand. Oh God. God give me the strength to not be scared. I kept praying over, and over. I was never like this with Eric. I was eager when Eric, and I had decided we were ready. But Eric hadn't been my best friend since preschool. "Darling?" I heard Kevin's soft, and quiet voice. "Hmmm? I'm sorry I zoned out" I said looking up at him. He kissed my forehead. "Go get ready, I have to make a quick phone call" he said as he handed me the key. I nodded, and I walked to our room.
As I sat there brushing out my long hair I heard Kevin enter the room. My nerves had calmed down some, but still...I was hoping I would do everything right, and make this a nice night for him. Kevin shrugged his jacket off, and he walker over to me. I stood up, and gave him a small smile. He pulled me close. "Ready?" He whispered. I took in a deep breath. "Ready" I whispered. He slowly leaned his head in, and pressed his lips against mine. They were so soft, and gentle. I was slowly unbuttoning his shirt. My fingers were shaking. I could feel his fangs elongating. His hands were all over me. He was so nervous. I could tell just by the way he was trying to work my dress off of me. I pulled away from kissing him, and sat on the edge of the bed. I pulled him down on top of me, and I gently kissed his neck. His hands fumbled with the zipper on my dress, and I started helping him. "I'm sorry...." he whispered as he slid my dress down. "It's alright......I know you're nervous......I am too....." I whispered as I worked on his belt buckle. "I love you.......so much" he whispered as he kissed my neck gently. My breathing picked up a little as his lips made their way across my chest and up my neck. I lay back on the bed, and I wiggled out of the rest of my dress. He was already undressed by the time I got out of my dress. I saw his cheeks turn pink, and I felt my cheeks flare up. "......if I hurt you.....please tell me......" he whispered as he touched my face. I nodded slowly. He lay down on top of me. I wrapped my arms around his waist, and I closed my eyes. I was kissing his shoulder when all of a sudden I felt the pain, and I cried out digging my face into his shoulder. "Shh....shh it'll stop soon....shhh.....shhh.....I promise...." he whispered as he rubbed my back. The pain increased making tears flood my eyes. I was whimpering into his shoulder. "Shh....shh....shh.....shh baby girl....just a bit longer....." he whispered. After a minute or so the pain started to disappear. My whimpering quieted down, and I gasped. "....I promise to be gentle" he whispered into my ear. Gentle. 'I promise to be gentle...' Eric's words rang in my head the first time we ever did this. Gentle. "No......." I whispered. "No?" He questioned. I hugged myself close to him. "No...........I'm tired of being careful......I'm tired of gentle........I don't want you to be gentle.......I don't want you to hold back...." I whispered as I stared into his eyes. "A-are you sure..." he whispered. I nodded. "Yes....don't hold back" I whispered. He nodded, and he kissed me long and hard. That night he didn't hold back. Not one bit. I was happy he didn't hold back. I was happy to begin a new with him. I was completely and utterly happy.
"Kevin, are you sure it's ok for me to come over? I thought you had to help your dad with something" I said as we were walking back to his place. "Yes baby I'm sure...they won't mind" he said smiling. Ever since prom last week Kevin, and I have been happier then ever. We were definately closer. Closer then we've ever been. I smiled, as we walked down the street hand in hand. "How's jazzy been feeling...?" I asked as I squeezed his hand. His baby sister Jazmine had been greatly ill. Nobody-not even Dr. Moore-knew what was wrong. Kevin sighed. "She...she's still not doing too good....I wish I could do something....all she does is cry all night long..." he whispered. I felt so bad. Kevin loved his baby sister dearly. Seeing her so ill-I know-ripped him in two. "Your such a good big brother...Jazzy will be just fine...she's strong...just like you" I said as I reached up and kissed his cheek. He smiled. His smile was distant though. "Darling...." I whispered as I wrapped my arms around his waist. I touched his face gently. I saw this smile only once before. When his grandfather was slowly dying from a disease known as asophylioma. Back then I hadn't known what it was, and neither did Kevin. But now, we know it to be a disease elder vampires sometimes get. It's a disease that affects the appetite, and it affects the vampric brain cells. It kills off the brain cells slowly, and after a while you get so weak that you can no longer fend for yourself. Kevin slowly watched his grandfather die. His dad spent countless nights studying, trying to find a cure...but he was unsuccessful. This smile, this smile he was now wearing, it was a hopeless smile. I stared into his eyes. A slight glimmer appeared at the corners of those beautiful sky blue eyes. "She'll be ok sweetheart...." I whispered. "But.....but pap he-" I cut him off with a kiss. "Your pap was different...Jazzy...she's has a strong spirit....she won't give up so easily...." I whispered. The slight glimmer at the corner of his eyes slid down his cheeks and lingered on his lips. I kissed his lips gently, and I hugged him tight. "Don't worry Hon....." I whispered. I knew that making promises like this wasn't good, but without hope....my boyfriend had nothing.
As we walked into his house I could feel a sort of heaviness in the air. It was so overpowering. "Mama? Dad?" Kevin called out. "Big bwotew...." came a weak and tired voice from the top of the stairs. "Jazzy..." he whispered as he dropped his bag and ran upstairs. I followed him quickly. When I got to the top of the stairs I saw him holding his baby sister close. "What are you doing out of bed Jazzy?" He asked as he moved her blonde curls out of her eyes. "I heawd you come home and I wanted to-" she paused to cough. "...I wanted to see you...." she said in a quiet voice. "Baby......" he whispered quietly. Jazmine started having a coughing spell. "Jazzy?!" Kevin yelled. I quickly ran downstairs, got a glass of water and ran back upstairs. Kevin was rubbing her little back. "Jazzy drink this sweetie...."I said quietly as I held the glass to her lips. She drank some of the water. I could see the worry in my boyfriend's eyes. "Jazzy...sweetheart...you need to stay in bed...." I said as I picked her up. She rested her tiny head on my shoulder. Her breathing was labored. I carried Jazzy to her room, and gently lay her in her bed. "Jade.....I scawed...." she said quietly. "I know sweetie.....you'll be ok honey don't worry" I said as I kissed her head. I watched as Jazzy slowly fell asleep. Jazzy was such a little miracle. She had been a complicated birth. I remember being there with Kevin and Alex.
"It's ok mama....it's ok..." Kevin kept telling his mom as he helped his dad get her ready. Alex was pacing the room. Everyone was so tense, including me. "Darling you need to take deep breaths......just try and relax..." Damien said trying to sound calm. This can't be happening. This can't be happening. Not Elena. We can't lose her. "Damien............it hurts!" She cried. I could see the pain in his eyes. So much pain. So much fear. Fear of losing his soul mate. His love. His wife. His eternity. "I know sweetheart...........I know" he whispered to her. Kevin was in tears as he stood up. "Dad.....she's ready" he whispered. I watched as Damien kneeled below his wife. Alex couldn't even stay in the room any longer. He had walked outside to smoke. Alex was the kind of guy who smoked when he was nervous. It took his mind off of things. I know Kevin wanted to leave too, but he couldn't. He had to stay to help his dad. "Elena, baby you have to push...you have to!" Damien said his voice wavering. Complications. No. She can't be having complications. Complications never ended well. Her screams seemed to echo through the entire house. "It's ok mama.....everything will be ok!" Kevin cried. I held him tight as he cried. I watched as she slowly pushed the tiny baby out. The baby wasn't moving. Wasn't breathing. Oh God. I watched as Damien layed her down gently, and injected a dark red liquid into the tiny baby. I didn't realize then what he had injected into her, but now I know. It was his blood. He used his vampire blood to save her. When she started crying I heard Elena crying as well. "My baby.....my baby...." she cried. "Hon....she's perfect" Damien whispered as he placed her on Elena's chest. "My baby.....my Jazmine...." she whispered.
"Sweetheart..." Kevin's voice pulled me from my memories. "Hmmm?" I murmured as I looked back at him. "You were taking a long time putting Jazzy to bed...is everything ok..." he said quietly as he walked up to me. "Y-ya babe..." I said smiling. I watched as he kissed Jazzy's tiny head. He was so tender hearted. So loving. So caring. "Come on...mama made some snacks...she and dad want to talk to us..." he said as he led me out of the room. Talk? Talk about what? I wondered this as we descended the steps. We walked into the kitchen, I saw his mom, but his dad was no where to be found. "Hello Jade...I'm glad you stopped by" she said smiling. I smiled, and gave her a hug. "How have you been Mrs. Moore?" I asked smiling. She sighed. "Good.....I would be a lot better if I knew what was wrong with my baby" she said quietly. I squeezed her again. "She'll be ok Mrs. Moore. Jazzy is a strong little girl...she'll pull through" I said giving her a reassuring smile. "Mama...where's dad? I thought you two wanted to talk..." Kevin said sitting at the kitchen table. "He's in his office.... he got a call from Amani" his mom said as she sat a plate full of cookies and some fruit on the table. "Amani? Who's calling from Amani?" Kevin asked. "I'm not sure honey..." she said as she washed some dishes. I sat down next to Kevin, and I picked up an apple. "Amani?" I questioned. "It's the place where my dad worked back in Romania" Kevin said as he put his arm around me. I took a bite out of the juicy red apple in my hands. "Can I have a bite?" Kevin asked smiling. I smiled and held my apple up to his lips. He took a bite out of it leaving a trail of apple juice dribbling down his chin. "Your so messy" I said giggling as I wiped the juice trail away. He chuckled, and slowly leaned his head in. I smiled as I closed my eyes. His soft, moist, cool lips felt good against mine. "Oooo cookies!" I heard Alex exclaim. "Alex why do you always come in during the worst times" Kevin groaned. Alex stuck his tongue out at Kevin, and shoved a cookie in his mouth. "Mmmm mama these are delicious!" Alex exclaimed. "Thank you baby" Elena said smiling as she reached up to kiss his head. Kevin picked up a cookie and held it to my lips. Usually I didn't eat a lot of sweets, but Elena's cookies were a huge exception. I took a small bite out of it, leaving some chocolate on my lips. "Oops guess I'm messy huh?" I said smiling. "Yes, but that's a good thing because it gives me an excuse to do this" he said smiling as he kissed me again. I felt his cool tongue scrape against my lips wiping the chocolate away, but also leaving my face beat red. I started to kiss him back when we heard his dad come in. "Kevin...Jade...I need to speak to both of you in my office..." Damien said quietly. As Kevin pulled away we heard him leave the room. Kevin looked at his mom. "Go ahead honey...I'll be in momentarily" she said turning her attention to the beeping oven. Kevin, and I got up and we walked to Damien's office down in the basement. I was kind of nervous. What could his dad want to talk about? Did it have to do with whomever was calling from Amani? I had a bad feeling that was why he wanted to talk to us. Kevin, and I walked into Damien's office. He was doing some paper work at his desk. It took him a moment before he looked up at us. "Sit down please" he said motioning to the chairs infront of his desk. I gulped a little as I sat down. "Now......Kevin....I'm not going to blame you for this because I should of explained the rules of Amani more clearly, but....the other members of the B.R.S called.......they know what you and Jade did last week after Prom. They know that you two had sex, and they are not happy. They said that if...if you don't wipe her memory, and leave her...they will take matters into their own hands..." Damien said with a sad look in his eyes. "What?! No dad they can't make me do that!" Kevin yelled as he stood up. "Oh son...yes they can...you don't know the B.R.S; they are ruthless...they have trained assassins that will take you out before you can even lift a finger...son please...I know what those assassins are like....please..." his father pleaded. I couldn't believe this. No. This couldn't be happening. "Dad your one of them! Can't you do anything!" Kevin yelled as he slammed his hands down on the desk. "I tried Kevin! I tried! They won't listen to me!" He yelled. Kevin punched the wall. I've never, ever in my entire life, seen him so mad. "Let them come! Let them send those assassins! Let them try!" Kevin yelled as he stormed out of the room. I was staring at the ground. "Jade....sweetheart....." his dad said quietly. "The B.R.S....who are they....why are they doing this" I whispered still in shock. Damien sighed, and stood up. "Honey...the B.R.S is an elite group of vampires.....the eldest in the world......I am one of the three.....Asher and Acheron are the names of the other two......you see Jade many many years ago Asher, Acheron, and myself used to be great friends....one night we had gotten drunk on some imported Rum at the bar. Well as we were walking home that night we staggered into a back alley; not our smartest decision I might add, there was a rabid dog digging through the trash. It looked skinny, malnourished, and quite dangerous...Asher, being the show off that he was, walked up to the dog. The dog growled in warning, but Asher provoked it further....I tried stopping him, but it attacked. In a matter of seconds the dog had ripped his throat out, leaving him bleeding out on the ground. Acheron attacked the dog next, but the dog grabbed his arm and ripped it off. I watched in disbelief at this amazing creature. I knew my turn was next, and as soon as that thought crossed my mind the dog jumped on me, and ripped me apart....all I remember was a burning sensation hitting my body completely....it felt as though all the blood in my body turned to ice.....I wanted to scream, but my voice could not be found.....it wasn't until hours later I woke up a completely new person-not knowing then- I wasn't exactly a normal person....I was now one of the undead...later on after months of research I found out that animal had been carrying a rabid, DNA altering, genetic disease.......Vampriclata...... being bit by this dog altered our lives physically, and mentally.....after I found this out I went looking for the dog....my blood called for it's blood....I could feel it in my fey being that I was getting closer....and when I finally found it, and put it out of it's misery I felt.....calmer......more at peace....from that moment on Asher, Acheron, and I were of one being....we created the Black Rose Society also known as the B.R.S...yes we came up with these rules and I regret making everyone of them....." Damien said sullenly. Oh my. This was so much to take in. Assassins. The Black Rose Society. What do I do? What do I do?! They said if he didn't wipe my memory, and leave me they would take matters into their own hands. Matters into their own hands.... They would surely kill Kevin. My best friend. My lover. My Kevin. No. I couldn't let this happen. No. "Jade?" Damien's soft voice pulled me from my thoughts. I looked up at him, my-usually-soft brown eyes were full of fear. Not for myself, but for Kevin, and his family. "I....I have to go..." I whispered as I got up, and ran out of the room.
As I ran downstairs I saw Kevin pacing back and forth. I had to do this. I had to. "Kevin....." I whispered. He turned around quickly, and he hugged me tightly. "Don't worry Jade...I won't let them harm you..." he whispered. Tears flooded my eyes. "Kevin...no...no...I won't have you, and your family in jeopardy because of me. Do it...wipe my memory...do it!" I yelled, my voice cracking. His beautiful sky blue eyes that I adored so much became pain filled. "Jade...no...no! I love you! I won't ever do that!" He cried out. Tears fell from his eyes as he stared into mine. "Kevin...no...I won't let you risk your life, and your family's for me!" I cried. He grabbed my face, and stared into my eyes. "You listen to me Jade Elisabeth Leone...I...I love you with all of my heart...I would rather die then spend one moment on this earth without you...let them come...let them send their strongest assassin...because as long as I'm alive...they will never touch you or my family..." he whispered as the tears slowly slid down his cheeks. I started to cry. Why was he doing this? Why...? "Kevin...please...please don't do this for me-" before I could speak anymore he kissed me deeply. "...Jade...baby girl...never...I will never leave you..." he whispered. My heart felt as though it was breaking into a thousand tiny pieces. I clutched at my chest crying. Kevin...he really truly loved me. But was I ready to lose someone else I loved? Was I ready for it to be a repeat of what happened to Eric? "Jade...babe...I promise nothing will happen..." he whispered. "How do you know?" I whispered as I stared into his eyes. "Because I'll do anything to protect the people I love" he whispered as he kissed me again. I hugged myself close to him, and I kissed him back. Maybe nothing would happen. How does the B.R.S know anyway whether Kevin wiped my memories or not? I mean they couldn't possibly know, right? And...and maybe...maybe if I could get Kevin to change me into a vampire then...then the B.R.S wouldn't bother us anymore. I gulped. But what would he say if I asked him? Maybe I should wait. Yes. I'll wait. If the B.R.S bothers us again...then I'll ask him.

Influences in my life :)

I have had many influences in my life. Many including my supportive mom, God, Edgar Allan Poe, Salvidor Dali and many others. Edgar Allan Poe has really inspired me to write he is so amazing. Salvidor Dali was one of my favorite artist. I love his work. God he gave me the amazing gift of writing and drawing, and my mom is always there to support me :)

My Music :)

This is a christian band called Evanescence. They are amazing :)

White Board Animation

This is my whiteboard animation :3 :D :)

Edgar Allan Poe

Edgar Allan Poe was an amazing writer. Born on January 19, 1809 in Boston Massachusetts Edgar was destined for greatness. Poe was the son of actors, and really never knew his parents. His father had left early on, and his mother had died from Tuberculosis when Poe was just three years old.

After the tragic death of his mother, Poe was separated from his siblings, and sent to live with John and Frances Allan. Immediately he and Frances formed a bond, but he and John never quite connected. He performed poetry over business, and it is said he wrote some poems on the back of Allan's business papers.
Edgar wrote many poems, and short stories in his day.His very first book was called, Tamerlane and Other Poems in 1827, he also had joined the army around this time. Poe won a spot at the West Point military academy in 1830. Even though Poe excelled at his studies, he was kicked out after a year for his poor handling of his duties.While at West Point though Poe had gotten into a fight with Allan, and he then decided to sever ties with him. After leaving the academy, from 1831 to 1835 Poe stayed with his Aunt Maria Clemm, and her daughter Virgina. His young cousin Virgina became a literary inspiration, as well as his love interest. They married in 1836 when she was only 13 or as some sources say 14 years old. He returned to Richmond in 1835, and he went to work for a magazine called the Southern Literary Messenger. There is where he gained his nickname the cut-throat critic, he published vicious reviews on his contemporaries. He also published some of his own works including two parts to his novel The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym. His time there proved short however. Poe's aggressive-reviewing style and sometimes combative personality strained his relationship with the publication, and he left the magazine in 1837. His problems with alcohol also played a role in his departure, according to some reports.
In the 1830's Poe published Tales of the Grotesque and Arabesque, a collection of stories. It contained several of his most spine-tingling tales, including "The Fall of the House of Usher", "Ligeia" and  "William Wilson". Poe became a literary sensation in 1845 with the publication of the poem "The Raven". It is considered a great American literary work and one of the best of Poe's career.
     Poe was overcome with grief after the loss of his wife Virginia in 1847. While he continued to work he suffered from poor health, and struggled financially. His final days still remain somewhat of a mystery. He left Richmond on September 27, 2849, and was supposedly on his way to Philadelphia. On October 3, Poe was found in Baltimore in great distress. He was taken to Washington College Hospital where he died on October 7. His last words were "Lord, help my poor soul".
     While he never had financial success in his lifetime, Poe has become one of America's most enduring writers. His works are as compelling today as they were more than a century ago. A bright, imaginative thinker, Poe crafted stories and poems what still shock, surprise, and move modern readers today.

Here is one of Poe's famous Short Stories. The Tale-Tell Heart

The Tell-Tale Heart

by Edgar Allan Poe
(published 1850)

  

   TRUE! -- nervous -- very, very dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why will you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened my senses -- not destroyed -- not dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing acute. I heard all things in the heaven and in the earth. I heard many things in hell. How, then, am I mad? Hearken! and observe how healthily -- how calmly I can tell you the whole story.

    It is impossible to say how first the idea entered my brain; but once conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there was none. Passion there was none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged me. He had never given me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think it was his eye! yes, it was this! He had the eye of a vulture --a pale blue eye, with a film over it. Whenever it fell upon me, my blood ran cold; and so by degrees -- very gradually --I made up my mind to take the life of the old man, and thus rid myself of the eye forever.

    Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded --with what caution --with what foresight --with what dissimulation I went to work! I was never kinder to the old man than during the whole week before I killed him. And every night, about midnight, I turned the latch of his door and opened it --oh so gently! And then, when I had made an opening sufficient for my head, I put in a dark lantern, all closed, closed, so that no light shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you would have laughed to see how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly --very, very slowly, so that I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to place my whole head within the opening so far that I could see him as he lay upon his bed. Ha! --would a madman have been so wise as this? And then, when my head was well in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously --oh, so cautiously --cautiously (for the hinges creaked) --I undid it just so much that a single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye. And this I did for seven long nights --every night just at midnight --but I found the eye always closed; and so it was impossible to do the work; for it was not the old man who vexed me, but his Evil Eye. And every morning, when the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber, and spoke courageously to him, calling him by name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he has passed the night. So you see he would have been a very profound old man, indeed, to suspect that every night, just at twelve, I looked in upon him while he slept.

    Upon the eighth night I was more than usually cautious in opening the door. A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did mine. Never before that night had I felt the extent of my own powers --of my sagacity. I could scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think that there I was, opening the door, little by little, and he not even to dream of my secret deeds or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea; and perhaps he heard me; for he moved on the bed suddenly, as if startled. Now you may think that I drew back --but no. His room was as black as pitch with the thick darkness, (for the shutters were close fastened, through fear of robbers,) and so I knew that he could not see the opening of the door, and I kept pushing it on steadily, steadily.

    I had my head in, and was about to open the lantern, when my thumb slipped upon the tin fastening, and the old man sprang up in bed, crying out --"Who's there?"

    I kept quite still and said nothing. For a whole hour I did not move a muscle, and in the meantime I did not hear him lie down. He was still sitting up in the bed listening; --just as I have done, night after night, hearkening to the death watches in the wall.

    Presently I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was the groan of mortal terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief --oh, no! --it was the low stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the soul when overcharged with awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night, just at midnight, when all the world slept, it has welled up from my own bosom, deepening, with its dreadful echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say I knew it well. I knew what the old man felt, and pitied him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew that he had been lying awake ever since the first slight noise, when he had turned in the bed. His fears had been ever since growing upon him. He had been trying to fancy them causeless, but could not. He had been saying to himself --"It is nothing but the wind in the chimney --it is only a mouse crossing the floor," or "It is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp." Yes, he had been trying to comfort himself with these suppositions: but he had found all in vain. All in vain; because Death, in approaching him had stalked with his black shadow before him, and enveloped the victim. And it was the mournful influence of the unperceived shadow that caused him to feel --although he neither saw nor heard --to feel the presence of my head within the room.

    When I had waited a long time, very patiently, without hearing him lie down, I resolved to open a little --a very, very little crevice in the lantern. So I opened it --you cannot imagine how stealthily, stealthily --until, at length a single dim ray, like the thread of the spider, shot from out the crevice and fell full upon the vulture eye.

    It was open --wide, wide open --and I grew furious as I gazed upon it. I saw it with perfect distinctness --all a dull blue, with a hideous veil over it that chilled the very marrow in my bones; but I could see nothing else of the old man's face or person: for I had directed the ray as if by instinct, precisely upon the damned spot.

    And have I not told you that what you mistake for madness is but over acuteness of the senses? --now, I say, there came to my ears a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I knew that sound well, too. It was the beating of the old man's heart. It increased my fury, as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.

    But even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely breathed. I held the lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain the ray upon the eye. Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased. It grew quicker and quicker, and louder and louder every instant. The old man's terror must have been extreme! It grew louder, I say, louder every moment! --do you mark me well? I have told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the dead hour of the night, amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for some minutes longer I refrained and stood still. But the beating grew louder, louder! I thought the heart must burst. And now a new anxiety seized me --the sound would be heard by a neighbor! The old man's hour had come! With a loud yell, I threw open the lantern and leaped into the room. He shrieked once --once only. In an instant I dragged him to the floor, and pulled the heavy bed over him. I then smiled gaily, to find the deed so far done. But, for many minutes, the heart beat on with a muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me; it would not be heard through the wall. At length it ceased. The old man was dead. I removed the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead. I placed my hand upon the heart and held it there many minutes. There was no pulsation. He was stone dead. His eye would trouble me no more.

    If still you think me mad, you will think so no longer when I describe the wise precautions I took for the concealment of the body. The night waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence. First of all I dismembered the corpse. I cut off the head and the arms and the legs.

    I then took up three planks from the flooring of the chamber, and deposited all between the scantlings. I then replaced the boards so cleverly, so cunningly, that no human eye -- not even his --could have detected any thing wrong. There was nothing to wash out --no stain of any kind --no blood-spot whatever. I had been too wary for that. A tub had caught all --ha! ha!

    When I had made an end of these labors, it was four o'clock --still dark as midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there came a knocking at the street door. I went down to open it with a light heart, --for what had I now to fear? There entered three men, who introduced themselves, with perfect suavity, as officers of the police. A shriek had been heard by a neighbor during the night; suspicion of foul play had been aroused; information had been lodged at the police office, and they (the officers) had been deputed to search the premises.

    I smiled, --for what had I to fear? I bade the gentlemen welcome. The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I mentioned, was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over the house. I bade them search --search well. I led them, at length, to his chamber. I showed them his treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm of my confidence, I brought chairs into the room, and desired them here to rest from their fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect triumph, placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath which reposed the corpse of the victim.

    The officers were satisfied. My manner had convinced them. I was singularly at ease. They sat, and while I answered cheerily, they chatted of familiar things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale and wished them gone. My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears: but still they sat and still chatted. The ringing became more distinct: --it continued and became more distinct: I talked more freely to get rid of the feeling: but it continued and gained definiteness --until, at length, I found that the noise was not within my ears.

    No doubt I now grew very pale; --but I talked more fluently, and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased --and what could I do? It was a low, dull, quick sound --much such a sound as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I gasped for breath -- and yet the officers heard it not. I talked more quickly --more vehemently; but the noise steadily increased. I arose and argued about trifles, in a high key and with violent gesticulations; but the noise steadily increased. Why would they not be gone? I paced the floor to and fro with heavy strides, as if excited to fury by the observations of the men -- but the noise steadily increased. Oh God! what could I do? I foamed --I raved --I swore! I swung the chair upon which I had been sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the noise arose over all and continually increased. It grew louder --louder --louder! And still the men chatted pleasantly, and smiled. Was it possible they heard not? Almighty God! --no, no! They heard! --they suspected! --they knew! --they were making a mockery of my horror! --this I thought, and this I think. But anything was better than this agony! Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! --and now --again! --hark! louder! louder! louder! louder! --

    "Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I admit the deed! --tear up the planks! --here, here! --it is the beating of his hideous heart!"

This short story is about a murderers guilt, and how he let his guilt take control, and it got him caught.

Here is one of his poems Annabel Lee

Annabel Lee

by Edgar Allan Poe
(published 1849)

  
It was many and many a year ago,
   In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
   By the name of ANNABEL LEE;--
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
   Than to love and be loved by me.
She was a child and I was a child,
   In this kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love--
   I and my Annabel Lee--
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
   Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
   In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud by night
   Chilling my Annabel Lee;
So that her high-born kinsman came
   And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
   In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in Heaven,
   Went envying her and me:--
Yes! that was the reason (as all men know,
   In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of a cloud, chilling
   And killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
   Of those who were older than we--
   Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in Heaven above,
   Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee:--

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I see the bright eyes
   Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
   In her sepulchre there by the sea--
   In her tomb by the side of the sea.

 This Poem Annabel Lee was written for his second wife who had died in a tragic house fire.

In the Video I have provided for you,  you can see a trailer to the new movie The Raven which is all about Edgar Allan Poe, and his amazing work. His work has influenced me to be an amazing writer like he is. I want to become a successful writer like him one day, and I hope that my writing can get good like his one day.